My Everything

I want to be beautiful 

And make you stand in awe 

Look inside my heart 

And be amazed 

I want to hear you say 

Who i am is quite enough 

I just want to be worthy of love 

And beautiful 

-BETHANY DILLON, "Beautiful" 

One nite, Brian and i had some a counseling session with a couple that we've been seen for several times. While we gave a session to them, i myself got a session from what my husband shared that nite. Well, kalo diceritain akan panjang banget karena memang sessionnya yang cukup panjang *pheww* ... i just felt im in love again and again.  Asiknya, karena gak bertepuk sebelah tangan karena ... i also felt i am loved, so loved by him that nite. 

The First Love has showered me that nite, healed my brokeness, and filled my emptyness. *smiling* Cepat sekali terjadinya, it was like a flash get through me, and wiiiiiii i was changed. Hitungan nya per detik lah, gak sampe semenit. and i was like *woww* (pernah rasain gak kaya gitu?.red) 

And after that, giliran gue yang harus share something .. after my *wow* moment, rasanya aneh banget, yang di dalem gue semanget kaya maen pinball dapet jackpot (serius.red) yang diluar merasa gak siap dengan yang terjadi barusan .. maka terbata-bata lah gw ngomong nya (hitungannya menit kalo ini.red) then setelah itu eveything back to normal. (pernah rasain juga yang kaya gitu?.red)

The feeling that i am loved, helps me to be strong. 

The fact that i am loved, gaves me courage. 

If somehow you see me 'strong', thats because he loves me for who i am. 

If somehow you see me 'courage women', thats because he told me that im worthy to be loved. 

yes he did. (some of you might think: no way, brian could do that? yes he did) 

Max, your dad did. *smiling and cheers* 

You are everything 

and you make me stand in awe 

i see you everyday and i keep amazed 

how God could created such a man like you 

how God could put such a heart like yours 

I want to say that who you are 

is more than what i ask for 

is more than what i expect for 

You are my everything 

-ESSLY THE, "Everything"