Seeing with your heart; SEEING THE INVICIBLE

Hello Saturday and Hello you, you and you - Its a good day for you to fly like a beautiful butterfly. But before you do and whatever you have planned for today and where ever you are; im praying that this note would somehow reminds you, equip you, and even empower you for today. This is actually the series of my notes "Matters of Heart" so you can just read them with just clicking the tags "matters of heart". Enjoy the reading!

So many times in our lives, we only see what this eye can see perfectly. Waktu orang-orang matanya mulai kabur (bolor.red), mereka panik dan mulai mencari cara supaya mereka melihat dengan jelas. Karena kegiatan ‘melihat’ ini definitely is the most important thing in life. Dan ini membuat panca indera ‘mata’ kita jadi bagian yang gak diragukan dan gak disangkal jadi bagian yang terpenting. (semuanya penting juga anyway.red)

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen.

For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal. 2 Cor 4:18

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. Matt 5:8

Kalo kita bandingkan dua perkataan diatas, ada koneksi yang begitu kuat antara ‘mata’ kita dan ‘hati’ kita. Infact, our heart is another eye in our lives. Dalam hidup kita, ada masa-masa dimana semua yang keliatan sama kasat mata kita gak menyenangkan. Tell me more; mungkin keadaan kita, kondisi hidup kita, kemiskinan kita, kesusahan kita, dan bahkan hal-hal yang rasanya gak mungkin kita hadapin. Dan kita mulai depresi dengan semua yang kita lihat.

Don’t give up too quickly. Karena kita punya ‘mata yang lain’ yaitu ‘hati’ kita untuk melihat apa yang tidak terlihat. This is so important to fix our eyes to what is unseen – for what is unseen is eternal. Kondisi mu hari ini yang kau lihat dengan mata itu hanya sementara, kesusahanmu, kemiskinanmu. Kondisi orang lain yang kau lihat mungkin melemahkan iman atau “ah kayanya dia gak bisa berubah”, semuanya itu hanya sementara.

THE INVICIBLE NOW BECOME VISIBLE AND POSSIBLE

1. Seeing Condition

The good thing about seeing with the heart is that we can see whatever we want! We can even create our future in our eyes. Create you best condition in your heart and keep those sight, because its not just about imagination, it is called "faith", and its because "seeing is believing, and what you believe is what gonna happen in your life"

2. Seeing People

Hidup kita ini selalu bergesekan dengan orang lain; Semakin kita dekat dengan orang-orang semakin banyaklah gesekan demi gesekan. The most concern thing in my ministry is putting a value in young people’s live, and its quite stressful (because of the truth that says that I cant change people). Dan, melihat kondisi ini dan orang-orang ini, dan juga usaha yang saya buat, saya putuskan untuk melihat dengan hati dan saya mulai melihat semua kebalikan yang saya lihat dengan mata Jasmani.

SEEING GOD IN EVERY SITUATION AND EVERY PEOPLE

The best thing about seeing the unseen – bukan hanya menciptakan segala hal sesuai dengan apa yang kita mau (dengan iman kita) – but SEEING GOD in everything. When we see God in our condition, in every people we meet – we’ll act differently and we’ll feel differently (*bold note to myself)

Lets just fix our heart (our eyes) to see the unseen thing, because the unseen thing is eternal. And Lets just decide to see GOD in every situation and every people today. The happiest man on earth is the one who can see God in everything; in every trouble, every process, and even in every good things. Have a great Saturday everyone!

Handling the truth: UPSIZE your HEART!

I have to admit that these past two weeks was not my best moment; sometimes I say to myself “I cant handle this” “I just want to skip it, please” “I hate this situation” and “its too hurtful for me”. But I do believe that each moment in our lives brings a new perspective and of course a new learning. I’m more than willing to learn, I’m so in the awareness that I’ve got a lot of public mistake and even the private failures … and i just want to get up again and just shine! Am I too much? *smile

“But solid food is for the mature, who by constant use have trained themselves to distinguish good from evil.”

Hebrew 5:14(NIV)

Tetapi makanan keras adalah untuk orang-orang dewasa, yang karena mempunyai pancaindera yang terlatih untuk membedakan yang baik dari pada yang jahat. Ibrani 5:14 (ITB)

PANCA INDERA YANG TERLATIH

Not everyone realize that ‘the heart’ is holding the biggest issue in our lives. Hati adalah jendela hidup kita, bahkan ekspresi wajah kita tercermin langsung dari kondisi hati kita. For me, ‘our heart’ is holding most of every issue in our lives; because we cannot distinguish the good , the bad, or even the evil using our physical eyes, ear, nose, or even our smart brain. No, we cant! We can only distinguish those through our most inner man – it’s the heart!

UPSIZE YOUR HEART;

For so many times and for so many situations in our lives, our hearts were only used to just ‘feel’ something (which is good) and this ‘feel’ creates ‘an emotion’ and produced ‘some important decision’ in our lives. But this is way too small if we only use our heart to just feel something. (because live is not just about feeling but also understanding)

The picture on the left is really explaining about upsizing our heart; Seringkali kita gak punya kapasitas hati yang cukup luas untuk menampung segala hal dalam hidup kita; entahkah itu hal yang baik, atau hal yang buruk, atau hal yang pedas, dll. Bayangkan lautan yang luas (wah, saya mau punya hati seluas lautan); di lempar air tinta segalon, lautan tetap punya kadar lautannya sendiri, dilempar merica satu box besar juga gak membuat air laut menjadi pedas, dan masih banyak lagi yang lainnya. Bayangkan hati kita saat ini; seringkali menjadi cepat kecewa, terburu-buru untuk putus asa, dan kadar hati kita bisa menjadi pahit. Ini membuktikan bahwa hati kita seperti gambar diatas yang digambarkan oleh aquarium kecil dengan ikan koki besar. Guys, its time to UPSIZE your heart.

Proverbs 4:23

(The Message) Keep vigilant watch over your heart; that's where life starts

(NIV) Above all else, guard your heart,
for everything you do flows from it.

(NKJV) Keep your heart with all diligence,
For out of it spring the issues of life.

(ITB) Jagalah hatimu dengan segala kewaspadaan, karena dari situlah terpancar kehidupan.

There are four (4) thing that i've learn from these past two weeks about upsizing our heart; it included: 1) See with your heart, 2) Listen with your heart, 3) Speak from your heart, and 4) Serving with heart. (Notes: im planning to make each one of them a big topic for this daily blog. im looking forward for my nite time to write again)

Whenever you see some situation, see with your heart (picturing a big and wider perspective in your heart and see the whole situation; something your eyes cannot see). Listen with your heart (dont just listen with your ear, you've got to discern the voice inside your heart, the people's heart, specially God's heart - God always speak to the heart, if you never upsize your heart - you wont get a chance to listen those beautiful whisper that will set you free. Speak from your heart (ask wisdom) to translate your heart into words that will be landing on somebody's heart, and to God's heart. And last, Upsizing your heart is talking about 'serving with heart' (i dont mean skill is not important, but 'the heart' will make your ministry alive and different). so you wanna make a difference? Upsize your heart.

Have a good night everyone; it feels good to be able to connect with all of you again.

Cheers

I want to be humble

Hello world! Today is a very tiring day .. my body is completely tired, yet my spirit is so ALIVE. Its been a week, a month, a year maybe im thinking about this one: HUMBLE. Berawal dari pemikiran, perenungan, analisa, sampai akhirnya menjadi sebuah kerinduan dan keinginan bahkan KEBUTUHAN. The crying out has started since last year, and entering this year this crying out becomes my DEPRESSION NEEDS. Last nite, and tonite i depressingly crying out:I WANT TO BE HUMBLE.

I dont know about you, tapi menjadi HUMBLE atau RENDAH HATI itu sama sekali bukan natural saya. I dont know about you, but humbleness is what i really need the most for this year. Kalau Salomo di jamannya meminta hikmat dan kebijaksanaan, Essly di jamannya meminta kerendahan hati. *DEPRESSINGLY* Sebuah kerinduan sampai membuat depresi dan stress sendiri. Its depressing because each time i ask for it, i have to fight my nature, my own flesh. Its depressing because God didnt gave me the humbleness, He gave me an experience and a journey that is not easy for me to be humble. so I assume, humbleness is a PRODUCT. Its not a gift wrapped by a nice wrapping and ribbon on top of it. Dan ternyata Firman Tuhan pun berkata bahwa kerendahan hati adalah salah satu BUAH dari ROH KUDUS. CONFIRMED!

Everytime i want to be humble, i never be humble.
Everytime i want to be humble, it always turned out to be the opposite.
but i need to be humble anyway, and I WANT TO, I HAVE TO.
- esslythe

HUMBLENESS

Humility is perfect quietness of heart. It is for me to have no trouble; never to be fretted or vexed or irritated or sore or disappointed. It is to expect nothing, to wonder at nothing that is done to me, to feel nothing done against me. It is to be at rest when nobody praises me and when I am blamed or despised. It is to have a blessed home in the Lord where I can go in and shut the door and kneel to my Father in secret and be at peace as in a deep sea of calmness when all around is trouble. It is the fruit of the Lord Jesus Christ’s redemptive work on Calvary’s cross, manifested in those of His own who are definitely subject to the Holy Spirit.
Andrew Murray

Saya rasa quote di atas menjelaskan SEMUANYA mengenai kerendahan hati. Let me translated into my translation. This is really good. And this is a bit intimidating, since im not humble. NOT YET not yet ..

Kerendahan hati adalah sebuah ketenangan di dalam hati. Tidak adanya gangguan di dalam hati; gak menjadi kesel, atau jengkel, atau terhina, atau terganggu, atau kecewa. Kerendaha hati gak mengharapkan balasan, berpikir bahwa segala sesuatu bukan karena saya, dan tidak berprasangka buruk terhadap apa yang orang lakukan terhadap saya. Kerendahan hati tetap tenang walaupun tidak ada seorangpun yang memberikan pujian kepada saya dan ketika saya disalahkan atau dikesampingkan. Kerendahan hati adalah sebuah rumah kemana saya dapat masuk dan menutup pintunya rapat dan bersujud di kaki Bapa di dalam sebuah kedamaian dan kedalaman seperti tenggelam di dalam lautan ketenangan ketika sekeliling kita adalah masalah. kerendahan hati adalah buah dari pekerjaan Yesus di kayu salib, yang dimanifestasikan melalui dirinya sendiri dalam rupa Roh Kudus. Andrew Murray.

So, i think im gonna leave you to PAUSE after you read this notes. a SHORT one right, but i guess its the DEEP one! Lets do the SELAH tonite or whenever you read this notes. Let this be our most desire, more than anything else in this world. And i really want to know what do you think about this HUMBLENESS. Please leave a comment and help me to be humble. I WANT TO BE HUMBLE.

to be continue ...

I want to be humble #2

I believe that yesterday notes was totally different. 11 people LIKES the notes, and 23 people ADDING a wonderful revleation to its original context. And THE COMMENTS is changing my life. Its like the puzzles puzzling the whole picture and it becomes clearer. So enjoy the part #2 of "I want to be HUMBLE"

Humility or Humbleness is not an outside reaction, it is a heart reaction. One common thing you were all ADD in the comments yesterday was one word "INSIDE OF ME" Seringkali, saya coba jadi rendah hati dengan bersikap diam, lembut, dan gentle tapi sebenarnya yang di dalam bergejolak dan berkata "gak setuju, geram, kesal, tersinggung, bahkan marah" It strucked me with a BIG "HEY" "what have i done? i didnt do anything wrong on the outside, but i SINNED on the inside. So the humility is the HEART REACTION.

Again we look at according Andrew Murray that humility or humbleness is the PERFECT QUIETNESS of heart. Elsa echa said we need to PRAY, and Pii Chanz were talking about SURRENDER FULLY to the Lord. James Enoch meneguhkan juga bahwa kerendahan hati bukan sikap yang harus dipaksakan, thats why i sum 'em all that: Humility or humbleness is not an outside reaction, it is a heart reaction. Why is so hard? Jerry D'likethis seringkali mengalami ada rasa "sakit hati" yang harusnya gak ada (well, me too Jer). Point Ronny Setiawan bisa jadi acuan buat kita juga, disaat kita memilih untuk "diam" dan "gak bereaksi" seringkali HATI KITA GAK DIAM (good point for me), Vincent Rumahloine thought that everybody thinks that they DESERVE at least a praise or a nobel for what they did.

HOW TO BE HUMBLE?
Well, i dont want to be so THEORETICAL about humility, because humility is a JOURNEY. Thats why Marina Latupeirisa said "Enjoy the ride, everyone" So this is the best from this notes. We all can learn together and WE MAKE A PUZZLE a bit bigger and deeper. The puzzle of humility that will never DONE as long as we live, but at least we tried to figure out how to be a humble person.

1. BE TEACHABLE
You know i was strucked when Leslie Lai said "Watch out! Teacher is everywhere" Adi Warman (papa Marvel) also said "kerendahan hati kita akan selalu diuji selama kita masih bersosialisasi dengan orang lain". It means: EVERYONE is our teacher.(Yes everyone! im not making a mistake here). Orang yang mudah diajar dan yang hatinya punya "willingness to learn" gak akan tersinggung kalau ada orang yang lebih muda atau mungkin yang gak kita kenal memberikan masukan atau bahkan teguran atau bahkan pengajaran. The heart would not say "who are you telling me this stuff" (just like Tiatira D'worshipper said) then she continue "who are you to judge? or maybe "who are you to treat me that way?" The teachable person will REMAIN teachable and the heart will WILLINGLY to learn just like Victor Hamdani said "... untuk mau belajar lebih lagi..." Ini point yang paling penting dan modal awal yang paling berharga. Lebih berharga dari semua TALENT, KEMAMPUAN, bahkan PENGETAHUAN ROHANI kita.

EVERYONE is our teacher. a random people in the street is our teacher, mang mang beca, mang baso, dan semua mang mang adalah guru kita. anak kecil adalah guru kita. Orang tua gak usah dibilang adalah
guru kita. REMAIN TEACHABLE is the key to be humble.

2. LESS ME, MORE GOD and PEOPLE
I love the way God always told me this sentence "Essly, its not about you" We need to understand that this universe is not about us. When Jesus lived on earth, its not about Jesus, its about THE FATHER and OTHER PEOPLE (if you notice that). Adisti Chandra creates this 2nd point: TO BE LESS IN ME. Glorya "raiia" Putri bilang bahwa waktu kita humble, kita gak akan mengecilkan orang lain. Nike Yosephine also added some good things "melepaskan hak sebagai manusia yang punya hak .. melepaskan hak untuk dihargai" Dan rasanya apa yang Budiman Rahardjos alami kita alami semuanya; saat dimana kita mengharapkan pujian dari orang (everybody has the same problem i think *chuckling*) I just want to encourage you all just like Shandi Wijaya said "Mendengar, Melihat, Merespon kepada orang lain bukan kepada ego sendiri. Betul banget, Teddy Pauzie Suryadi menambahkan bahwa hanya dengan gak berenti
melayani Tuhan dan melayani jiwa-jiwa kita akan terus belajar untuk LESS ME, MORE GOD, and PEOPLE.

i will wrap up this notes with a verse Marina Latupeirisa shared in John 3:30:

"He must increase, but i must decrease"
"Ia harus makin besar, tetapi aku harus makin kecil"

Last but not least, David Samuel said "We have to choose, mau tetap tinggal di alam manusia lama kita atau BERJALAN PINDAH ke alam yang baru dengan nature yang baru (backsound: i just want You by Planet Shaker *smile*). How to respond everything outside us is what is all about, said Danieloz Guntoritozh. Ps Frans Januaralso said about HAVING A PURE HEART is the KEY. Pure heart will say "its all about You God, not me" i think this sum up the whole notes. Adam Maba Medalia Ginting (my brotha in GLORIFY THE LORD ENSEMBLE) said "supaya kita
semakin serupa dengan DIA, we need to be humble.

Humble..
Jalan supaya kita CONNECT dengan Bapa di Surga. -Carolina Budi Suwandi

Wow, what a note hey ... WE HAVE A NOTE EVERYONE! If we continue this topic, with another opinion and another angle, i believe we can make a BOOK. So what do you think? I pray this this note will STIMULATE your spirit like it stimulated Debbie Oktriana. GOOD POWERFUL SUNDAY EVERYONE! Thank God for all of you, Praising God Worshiping God for the existence of you .. LORD, make us HUMBLE just like You.