Presence of God

Hello again everyone, hoping that you guys doing a great thing and having the most amazing day today. No matter what happen, i tell you there are still a reason to keep going, to keep pressing on, and to be thankful for everything, cause the bible said it so. Where ever you are now, feel the urgency to just solitude and read this note with a full heart. Here we go ...

Have you ever in love? I bet you do...
I'm in love with my husband like everyday; everyday our love journey is happening in this earth. We worked separately everyday, he has his own works to do and some people to handle, and i do too. Even our office were only separated by levels, yet we're so far away in mind. But each time I got something in mind, i always wanted him to know directly from me, and each time I have this kind of problem, i just want him to be here with me. Sometimes i don't need his advice or even the answer for the problem, i just want to be in 'his presence' because for so many times, that's just enough; knowing that he is around, that's just enough.

What about every question u have these days? What about every problem you've encountered these days? I bet you need an answer for so many things in your life, i bet you need the explanation about why things happening to you these days. And i bet some of you don't like the way this world treating you these days. You know, sometimes you just don't need those answer, you just need to be still in His presence and be refreshed in His presence.

This is what we missed these days: PRESENCE OF GOD
Presence of God is His manifestation upon His people, its a place where its only you and Him alone face to face. Presence of God is different with the presence of any other man in this world. His presence brings healing, power, and Everything that you need. And not only that, in His presence, there is no sin can hide, the sin will be uncover in His presence. This is what we missed these days ... People are keep coming to the church, but they don't change (the tragedy was happening when the sinners lift up their hands in church, yet they keep sinning and even worst, they dont care anymore about sinning). We missed the presence of God.

Hadirat Tuhan:
Adalah tempat dimana hanya ada saya dan Tuhan dimana Tuhan dapat bebas menginterupsi hati saya, membongkar semua dosa yang saya lakukan sengaja atau tidak sengaja, sebuah waktu dimana Tuhan menyatakan isi hatiNya dan tangisanNya, dan bahkan waktu dimana Tuhan menyegarkan visi saya, menguatkan kaki-kaki saya terutama hati saya; Hadirat Tuhan adalah sebuah tempat yang jika saya mau masuk lebih dalam disitu terdapat semua jawaban yang saya perlukan untuk segala hal, yaitu DiriNya sendiri. HadiratNya mengubahkan saya yang keras menjadi lembut, menyembunyikan saya dari segala kejahatan dan ketidakadilan dunia, bahkan membuka mata saya untuk melihat dengan kacamataNya. Everything does looks different in His perspective, that makes me understands the bigger picture of everything.

That's why i need His presence more than the answer; i can get the whole answer for every problem yet loosing His presence or even Him that would be the worst tragedy in my life. All i need is His presence, i know it might not change situations, but it changes me and the way i see things.

Psalm 51:11 [ RSV NASB NIV] . Cast me not away from Your presence and take not Your Holy Spirit from me. (its a deep prayer from David, someone who has experiencing the presence of God.

"I want the presence of God Himself, or I don't want anything at all to do with religion... I want all that God has or I don't want any."
— A.W. Tozer

Why dont you just go to your own place and experiencing His presence? You will never want to go out ...

His Heartbeat, My Music

Happy Saturday for everyone! Im posting my yesterday thought here because i had problem posting them yesterday in order of the blogger trouble in maintenance. So, before you read the today message, its good to read this one! Here is is, enjoy your day and be happy! you are so deserve to be happy...

Setelah Saul disingkirkan, Allah mengangkat Daud menjadi raja mereka. Tentang Daud Allah telah menyatakan: Aku telah mendapat Daud bin isai, seorang yang berkenan di hati-Ku dan yang melakukan segala kehendak-Ku. Kis 13:32

Kata “seorang yang berkenan di hati-Ku” kurang tepat kalo di terjemahan ini. In the origin language, it translated “a man after my own heart” (seseorang yang dekat di hati-Ku, seseorang yang telah memegang hati-Ku, seseorang yang ada di detak jantung-Ku, bahkan seseorang yang selalu membuat jantung-Ku berdetak kencang; Seseorang yang tahu kesusahan-Ku, tahu apa yang menjadi kesukaan Tuhan, dan tahu apa maunya Tuhan)

I got this revelation when I was at the gym yesterday morning – After morning prayer, I went up to the gym to worked out my body. I was joining class and then in the middle of class – I paused to drink my water. And it happened that time. Waktu saya diam dan coba ngatur nafas (you have know idea, I was heavy sweating, the adrenalin was so high, and the room was so hot) sambil minum, gak sengaja saya denger detak jantung saya sendiri – begitu cepet, begitu tegang, begitu DAG DIG DUG DER .. *lol dan tau gak, segera ikut lagi semua movement yang ditunjukkin instructur di depan.

DETAK JANTUNG SAYA YANG CEPAT membuat saya gak bisa diem, apalagi duduk tenang, karena tanpa sadar itu menuntut saya untuk bergerak mengikuti irama musik. Dan terus, sambil terus gerak, saya mulai coba buat sinkron, si DETAK JANTUNG, si MUSIK, dan juga si GERAKAN.

Im trying to synchronize My Heart Beat, The Music, with The Movement.

God taught me yesterday to listened His heartbeat in the crowds, in the valley, through the wind, through people, through every situation – Feel My Heart Beat says the Lord and move with your music …

Today, detak jantung siapa yang kita denger?

How bout to just close your eyes where ever you are now, and feel your heart beat – and lets be just like John who laid his head on God’s chest to listened to the most important heartbeat: God’s Heart Beat. Lets make GOD’S HEAT BEAT – YOUR MUSIC – and flow with the music. Jump into the music and move.

So, are you ready for today? Please have a great one, and an impacting one. The world, and even better: THE HEAVEN watches your life as if they don’t have anybody else but you. xoxo

Moving UP & Moving FORWARD

It’s a great day, isn’t it? Its been 13 hour since I woke up this morning and still it is so fresh remembering what happened in morning prayer at church. I remembered it still dark when I went out from my house and turn on the car to be heated a while before we flew to the church. So, this is the topic that I’d shared in Morning Prayer. Grab them all!

You know, as a human being we’re all about moving to one place and then another. The moment we are not moving, we are dying. But today, I want to focus about MOVING TO THE RIGHT WAY. If you ever listened to one sentence that often used in order breaking up, people tend to say “life must go on, so lets move on” – This is not the kind of move that I want to talk about. Its not just about moving on without direction or moving on with a wound in the heart. Its about Moving Up and Moving Forward. Come on say that again to yourself:

MOVING UP – MOVING FORWARD

Then the Lord said to Moses, "Come up to the Lord, you and Aaron, Nadab and Abihu, and seventy of the elders of Israel. You are to worship at a distance …Exodus 24:1 (NIV)

Berfirmanlah Ia kepada Musa: “Naiklah menghadap Tuhan, engkau dan Harun, Nadab dan Abihu dan tujuh puluh orang dari para tua-tua Israel dan sujudlah kamu menyembah dari jauh … “ Keluaran 24:1 (ITB)

Several times in the Old Testament, God appointed Moses and also Abraham to COME UP to the mountain – its like God wants the private place to speak to them, to give them a law (today we often called it as ‘r.e.v.e.l.a.t.i.o.n’). This is what I called as “MOVING UP” or “Moving to God” – up to God’s mountain. This is the first movement that we need to redouble the effort, to MOVE UP (Sometimes to Move Up, we need to traveled on our knees, and many times we need to give up every heavy burden one burden at a time while we’re climbing to finally arrive at the top of the mountain. Up in the mountain, is the place where God will speak to us, giving us a clear direction, or even heal our broken hearted and traumas in lives.

It’s a place where there’s only you and God – face to face just like Moses and Abraham. This is the first and the most important movement in our entire lives, that before we’re moving forward we know exactly where to go, what to do, and why we’re doing what we’re doing now.

In New Testament, Paul told Galatians in Galatians 1:12

“I did not receive it from any man, nor was I taught it; rather, I received it by revelation from Jesus Christ.” (Aku menerimanya oleh penyataan Yesus Kristus)

And also see Galatians 2:2

I went in response to a revelation and, meeting privately with those esteemed as leaders, I presented to them the gospel that I preach among the Gentiles. I wanted to be sure I was not running and had not been running my race in vain. (Aku pergi berdasarkan suatu penyataan)

MOVING UP first before you MOVING FORWARD.

Moving forward is the second important movement; because God is always moving.

By the time we stop moving, we stop following God.

“…let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run (moving forward) with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross…”

Hebrew 12:1-2

Whether you got hurt in the field, or you need some direction for your future, or you are facing your giant nowadays … MOVE UP to the mountain (get down on your knee with a heart that reaching out for Him, with all your heart, mind, soul, and strength), then don’t be too long stuck at your place where you are now – MOVE FORWARD with the eyes that fix on God (only God) – and don’t look back!

Jesus replied, "No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for service in the kingdom of God."

Luke 9:62

That’s all for today, I’m moving forward and moving ahead.

How bout you?

The greatest gift you can give is: YOU!

Good morning world .. im having my self moment after dropping my son at his school, its kinda hectic around me right now, but its not hard to have a solitude and this is what im thinking and pursuing these days. Enjoy the reading!

I love the idea about being 'healthy', well in fact i wanna be healthy: i wanna grow old and becoming a healthy grandma for my grandchildren. Im seeing myself in the future so wealthy, happy, and healthy. I have a big family (not a big fat one), but a really really happy and healthy one. You know, there's only one book that talks about E V E R Y T H I N G. Yes, im not wrong saying that this book, the bible is the only book that talks about everything; including healthiness.

Therefore, I urge you, brothers and sisters, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God—this is your true and proper worship. Romans 12:1

We dont just live for God, can i get an amen for this? We live in this world, some of you have a family, some of you are engaged, some of you maybe very young and living for yourself. But let me tell you something, the sadness thing in lifeis when we lost someone we love (our family, our spouse, our son/daughter, etc). I lost my dad when i was 27 years old, he was only 55 years old man (sadly he was not lived a healthy lives); my old man was not rich, was not tall, was not a manager or even an important man in a business world, he might not an important person for anybody outside my family, but he was an important man in my life, until today i still missed him in every sensitive moment in my life. You know, i didn't expect him to be rich, i just want him to be here on earth with me. And that would the greatest gift for me. Now, how bout you? I hope you can get all the big picture having a double effort to be healthy.

Quoting from Joyce Meyer that once said: The greatest gift that we can give to ourself, to God, to family, to our spouse, and even to other people is the healthy us. I think this one is so powerful. So many of us, we have tried to give everything else for others but ourselves. Gee, you know: the greatest gift you can give is: YOURSELF.

We are a "spirit, soul, and body" person. The three part of us should be healthy. In fact, there is a synergy between the three of them. Some people focusing on the body part first then to the soul and the spirit (from outside inside), while Paul on 1 Tes 5:23 focusing from the 'inside out' (start from the spirit, soul, and body)

Guys, we need to be and we have to be a healthy person (spirit, soul, body) - thats the greatest gift you can give. (even to yourself). A healthy spirit always have joy inside (because the spirit connect with God's spirit) that burst the soul (mind, emotion, and will) that will infect the body. from the inside out - let train our body to be fit and healthy. A healthy mind does not negative, while a healthy body does not overweight or minusweight (you eat right, in control, and having a regular fasting and regular sport activities).

Okey, so im saying this not because im already perfect, but because i need a friend in this journey to be healthy. How bout changing the world through our long lives on earth, and how bout giving the greatest gift to God, to our family, to our loved one, to our church, to this generation, and to ourselves?

Im hoping that you all gonna have an amazing and healthy day today.
Decide today to live healthy: spirit, soul, and body. Because the healthy person is the happy one and the happy person is a wealthy one. xoxo

Love God, Hate Sin

Hello again lovely people .. Ive been thinking about this topic since last AMAZING Sunday Service. and the topic was like PUSHING me to focus on him, and i tell you .. it haunted me like crazy .. the topic, the word, the expression FILLED my day and DISTURBING me so much, until i decided to SIT alone and let my fingers FLOWS on the keypad. SO here it is .. :-)

Pro 8:13 Takut akan TUHAN ialah membenci kejahatan; aku benci kepada kesombongan, kecongkakan, tingkah laku yang jahat, dan mulut penuh tipu muslihat.

We need to understand that its not enough for us to just LOVE God; we also need to HATE SIN. Jangan hanya menjadi orang-orang yang mencintai Tuhan, tapi jadilah orang-orang yang membenci dosa dengan level yang tinggi. Some might say that membenci dosa itu AUTOMATICALLY terjadi ketika kita mencintai Tuhan. But the fact is, I found so many people who love GOD (who say that they’re love God) YET still berkubang di dalam dosanya.

Whether it’s AUTOMATIC or not, I do believe we need to HATE SIN. You know what happen when you HATE someone? (Maybe your ex-boyfriend, or maybe someone who hurt you in the past, or someone who took everything from you, or someone who kills your parents; maybe some disease like cancer, etc “oh how much I hate cancer with all my heart, it kills my dad) YES, we need that kind of HATE, that level of HATE to the SIN.

It’s been so long; I never heard people say that they’re HATE SIN, but yes I heard almost everyday that people LOVE GOD. And so many times, I heard the confession of people yang jatuh dalam dosa, yang mengakibatkan mereka BENCI DIRI SENDIRI bukan benci dosanya. If we don’t hate SIN, it won’t let you go. TONITE, there’s a holy anger inside of me, remembering each one of you, imagining your faces and STRIKING SINS behind you. I do STRONGLY HATE all kind of SIN in a very STRONG LEVEL and I mean it. It means WAR. *kerung face*

Think of it: Betapa DOSA sudah merusak hidupmu, merusak gambar dirimu, merusak masa depanmu, membuatmu muak akan dirimu sendiri. Whatever it is guys, think of it.. put it inside your mind, what was happened when you fall into sin? Was it DESTRUCTIVELY DESTRUCTED your life, your mind, your day? YES IT WAS. The joy was disappeared; your whole day filled with intimidation and imagined how PROUD the devil laughing at you, because basically the devil was just OFFERED you the thought not the sin. It COMES out from your thought, your DECISION that made you SIN.

It’s enough blaming yourself. It’s enough for SIN. Its even enough to just think about SIN. Let’s think about how God has created a BIG and AMAZING FUTURE for each one of you. Lets think about how you will CHANGE the world in the future. Lets think of what BLESSING, what RESPONSIBILITY that God has prepared for you. Its begin in your thought. Joyce mayer said that THE MIND is OUR BATTLEFIELD, that’s why to HATE SIN, we need to start from our mind.

TIPS FOR YOUR DAYS:
1. BEGIN YOUR DAY or END YOUR DAY dengan pikiran yang ditawan dan ditaklukan kepada KRISTUS. How? Just simply say it to the Lord dan mulai untuk berpikir benar. When it comes to YOUR MIND, no one can enter into your mind .. you control your mind. So better control it setelah ditaklukan kepada Kristus.

2Co 10:5 Kami mematahkan setiap siasat orang dan merubuhkan setiap kubu yang dibangun oleh keangkuhan manusia untuk menentang pengenalan akan Allah. Kami menawan segala pikiran dan menaklukkannya kepada Kristus.

“Aku mematahkan setiap siasat dan merubuhkan setiap kubu yang dibangun oleh keangkuhan ku sendiri untuk menentang pengenalan akan Allah. Aku menawan segala pikiran dan menaklukannya kepada Kristus”

2. BEGIN YOUR DAY or END YOUR DAY with the FAITH STATEMENT. Hey, you need it, your own EAR need to hear it, your soul need to hear it, your mind need to hear it. Say it loud into yourself; tunjuk dirimu sendiri dan perkatakan pada dirimu sendiri perkataan dibawah ini.

1Jo 3:9 Setiap orang yang lahir dari Allah, tidak berbuat dosa lagi; sebab benih ilahi tetap ada di dalam dia dan ia tidak dapat berbuat dosa, karena ia lahir dari Allah.

“Sebab aku lahir dari Allah, dan aku tidak berbuat dosa lagi; sebab benih ilahi tetap ada di dalam aku dan aku tidak dapat berbuat dosa, karena aku lahir dari Allah”

3. And HAVE A POWERFUL DAY everyone!

Keep STRONG and Do EXPLOITS

Good day everyone! SOOOO glad that i could WRITE AGAIN. Hows life treating you? Hope all is well .. Lets learn something today.

So, its been a week im thinking about this subject, its been a week i meditated the word and bringing my heart back to the core of what is GOD really doing and what is GOD really wants me TO BE. And for one more time, it made me stumbled again at the CROSS, giving my life, re-newing my commitment, re-freshing OUR relationship and YES woohooo .. i know HE is alive and again HE made me FANATIC about HIM. Im all about HIM. My words, my days, my everything are all about HIM. YEs, call me FANATIC, call me FREAK .. i love those words. :-)

Ada satu kata kunci dari NOTES ini, yaitu: MENGENAL. Well its been an "ALWAYS" issue since before the creation, well actually since the OLD TESTAMENT. ITS ACTUALLY been GOD's DESIRE bahkan sampai menjadi pertanyaan favorite bagi Tuhan dan mungkin pertanyaan "intimidasi' untuk Murid-murid Nya waktu itu? :)

One times, Yesus bersama dengan murid-muridNYa dan timbul sebuah pertanyaan dari Tuhan sendiri Tuhan bertanya: "menurut engkau .. Siapakah AKU ini?" dan PETRUS yang langsung menjawab pertanyaan itu. WOW, imagining i was him, i would be so intimidated and a bit trembling thinking about the answer and how can i answer the "what the...?" question without hurting HIS heart YET saving my ass. *lol

SO TODAY as you read this notes, Jesus is asking the same question with the same tone as he asked to His DISCIPLES and He wants your answer. In the end, im going to let you answer the question to HIM or maybe you can share together with us.

All i want to do in this notes, is to TRIGGER you into more knowledge of Him and to gives you some TEST for you to answer HIS QUESTION. Are you ready?

Daniel 11:32
"...tetapi umat yang MENGENAL Allahnya akan tetap kuat dan akan bertindak"

i LIKE the english version:
but the people that do KNOW their God shall be STRONG, and DO EXPLOITS.

1. "The more you know HIM, the STRONGER you are"
Pengenalan itu sebuah kekuatan. Kenal dan tahu itu berbeda jauh. Saya tahu Bruce Willis, tapi saya tidak mengenalnya. Mengenal itu bicara soal HUBUNGAN. Ada relationship di dalamnya, there's a HEART INVOLVEMENT didalam sebuah pengenalan. Di dalam pengenalan, ada pemahaman. Di dalam pengenalan, ada pengertian. SO, what about GOD? Do we really know HIM like we suppose to have? The more i know my husband, semakin hati saya melekat pada dia. So today, there's some question that i want you to answer them quietly and secretly before GOD:
- Do you think you know your GOD?
- Apakah hatimu melekat pada DIA?
- For all these times, have you been STRONG enough?

If the answer is MOSTLY NO, then you need to know HIM. Get to know HIM. If you're not STRONG enough .. then maybe PENGENALANmu akan Tuhan masih dangkal. Karena orang yang mengenal Tuhan akan TETAP KUAT. You shall be STRONG.

2. The more you know HIM, the more EXPLOITS you will do"
i love the word "EXPLOITS". Orang yang mengenal Tuhan bukan hanya akan bertindak, TETAPI akan melakukan tindakan-tindakan yang menghasilkan LEDAKAN. IT simply means: IMPACTING. Ada dampak dari tindakan kita. Gak ada BOM manapun atau sekecil apapun yang tidak berdampak. Lets ask ourselves again this morning:
- Di saat semua orang menyerah, apakah kita ikut menyerah atau BERTINDAK?
- Apakah tindakan kita berdampak untuk sekeliling kita?
- Apakah kita tahu bahwa kita harus BERTINDAK rather than to wait someone?

IF the answer is MOSTLY NO, then you need to know Him. Get to know HIM. Kalau selama ini dalam segala hal engkau hanya diam, dan tidak bertindak .. somethings missing. Because Jesus died on the cross not so that we could just SIT and watch, but for us to MOVE OUR ASS and DO SOMETHING even DO EXPLOITS. If so, .. then maybe PENGENALANMU akan Tuhan masih dangkal. Karena orang yang mengenal Tuhan akan bertindak. YOU WILL DO EXPLOITS.

3."The more you know HIM, the more you will worship HIM"

Why cant people worship Him? or at least enjoying the praise and worship part at church? Ada banyak jawaban dari pertanyaan ini: Well, mungkin sound kurang baik, atau mungkin singers bersuara fals, atau the COMMON thing is orang merasa asing dengan lagunya atau juga orang kurang cocok dengan suasana praise and worshipnya, etc etc etc. BUT you know what, THE MAIN REASON why people cant enjoy the worship time, its because they dont know WHOM they worshiped.

Semakin kita mengenal seseorang, semakin MUDAH untuk kita memuja muja dan bahkan menyembah orang tersebut. The more i encounter my husband in his daily lives; watching him working, eating, enjoying the view while he was asleep and look into his deep eyes .. it BOOST my love for him. I find that its very easy to love him. My anger does not BIGGER than my love; his foolishness is covered, his weakness is covered. Because i know him, i encounter him everyday, i talk to him like everytime, and he is in my mind; my friend, my brother, my teacher, my husband, my soulmate.

SO, this is my answer for JESUS's question: "Essly, menurut kamu siapakah AKU ini?"
Menurut orang-orang, Kau adalah JURUSELAMAT YANG HIDUP. Itu yang pertama saya dengar tentang ENGKAU. Its been 10 years sampai hari ini; BAGI SAYA, Engkau RAJA yang berhati seorang BAPA, Engkau bukan hanya JURUSELAMAT, tapi ENGKAU RAJA. Selama 10 tahun ini, Engkau PENOLONG dan PEMBELA semua ketidakadilan yang saya hadapi. Engkau Tuhan yang juga KEKASIH jiwaku, Memerintah dengan CINTA, Menghajar karena CINTA, dan MATI karena CINTA tapi juga BANGKIT karena CINTA. Engkau BAPA yang layak disembah.

This last paragraph, kita lihat sama-sama apa yang Yesus katakan kepada PETRUS ketika Yesus mendengar jawaban dari PETRUS:

Mat 16:15 Lalu Yesus bertanya kepada mereka: "Tetapi apa katamu, siapakah Aku ini?"
Mat 16:16 Maka jawab Simon Petrus: "Engkau adalah Mesias, Anak Allah yang hidup!"
Mat 16:17 Kata Yesus kepadanya: "Berbahagialah engkau Simon bin Yunus sebab bukan manusia yang menyatakan itu kepadamu, melainkan Bapa-Ku yang di sorga.
Mat 16:18 Dan Akupun berkata kepadamu: Engkau adalah Petrus dan di atas batu karang ini Aku akan mendirikan jemaat-Ku dan alam maut tidak akan menguasainya.

Petrus mengenal Tuhan, Petrus memiliki pengertian tentang siapa YESUS bagi dia. Dan Petrus (yang menyangkal Yesus, yang sembrono, yang plin plan, yang asal ngomong, yang cepet bertindak dan kemudian menyesal) Tuhan ganti dengan istilah BATU KARANG. (melambangkan kekuatan dan kekokohan yang bukan PETRUS sama sekali) dan lagi, YESUS berkata: "Di atas BATU KARANG ini AKU akan MENDIRIKAN jemaatKu dan ALAM MAUT tidak akan menguasainya.

Artinya: Pengenalan mu pribadi akan siapa TUHAN akan menentukan apa yang akan Tuhan NYATAKAN dalam hidupmu dan apa yang akan Tuhan KERJAKAN dalam hidupmu.

So its your turn now to answer the question ...
Selamat mengenal Tuhan, Selamat jadi kuat, Selamat utk bertindak, dan Selamat menyembah!

How much do you want HIM?

WHAT IS THE POINT BEING SOMEWHERE WHERE PEOPLE DOESNT WANT YOU TO BE THERE?

This question has been haunting me since last Sunday. I was leading worship in the 2nd Thebridge Service and i was standing there lift up my hand, my head, my heart to God and just WANT HIM more. My heart realized that, My body language expressed that, and my tears was the FINAL expression. Some words HIT me that says "GOD WILL NEVER AROUND IN A PLACE WHERE PEOPLE DOESN'T WANT HIM" ("Tuhan tidak hadir ditempat DIA tidak diinginkan")

And few second on that stage, i was SPEECHLESS and asking GOD "God please i want YOU, they want YOU .. please be here, and not just be here, but RULE within us among us. BE the KING among us. I want You, i was saying with the heart that SOLD OUT without shame and abandoning the sweats all over my body; i was so broken and i just so WANT HIM. That second, i was like alone standing there, i forgot there were a musician, and singers. I just want HIM, and i INSIST GOD.

So i will throw this question to you all, so you all can have something to meditate today, or maybe something to add your revelation, or maybe just a reminder for you. Enjoy!

"HOW MUCH DO YOU WANT GOD?"

Psalm 73:25
"Siapa gerangan ada padaku di sorga selain Engkau? Selain Engkau tidak ada yang kuingini di bumi.
"Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.

As a quite famous girl in high school *rolling eyes*, of course there's a boys line up to be my boyfriend. lol* this one is true and i cant find another examples as good as this guys *sigh* So please stop laughing! lol
Oke so, in order of choosing who should i picked *lol* i would CHECK which one is the MOST CRAZY about me, and i would say YES to the one who WANT me really really really WANT me even he should be embarrassed by his ACT of WANTING ME (not in the secret place, but IN THE PUBLIC PLACE)

and you know what, so is GOD. i didn't say that GOD is a GIRL, but we (male and female) were created in the image of GOD. Have you noticed that WE (male and female) has GOD's IMAGE. and i believe HE IS AS STRONG AS A STRONGEST MAN BUT HE IS AS SOFT AS A SOFTEST FEMALE. BUT HE is not a girl. HE PUT His nature into Male and Female; different but EQUAL and HIS image. How cool is that, huh?

Well, When He's not around, and when you CANT FEEL Him .. its time for you to check your heart "DO I STILL WANT GOD? HOW MUCH I WANT GOD?" Because ..

WHAT IS THE POINT OF BEING AROUND YOU WHEN YOU DON'T WANT HIM

David has this desire, BIG and CRAZY desire. Read again those Psalm above; There is no one i want in this earth beside YOU. What a desire and what a love. Today, if you are far from GOD, its not because He leave you, hey you are the one who leave HIM. Today, if your cell group is DRY, its not because God doesnt want to bless your cellgroup, its maybe because no one in the cell group WANT HIM? Because ..

WHAT IS THE POINT OF BEING AROUND YOU WHEN YOU DON'T WANT HIM

Today, if our church is DRY, and you feel that you know that .. then somethings is missing. Its not wrong DOING lots of thing, its not wrong DOING PROGRAMS, its not wrong .. its not wrong .. Today, if the atmosphere is NO GOD, its not because HE doesn't want to be there, here with us. Because ..

WHAT IS THE POINT OF BEING AROUND US WHEN WE DON'T WANT HIM

As a leader, as a person, as a son or a daughter, as a servant, any title you have .. i just want to ask you to do something together with me. LETS WANT HIM, lets build the atmosphere of WANTING HIM more; at your home, in the cell group, in the church, in every meeting we have; lets come with the heart that WANTING HIM more. This level of WANTING HIM should grow, grow, grow ..

When we WANT HIM, we'll do EVERYTHING to HAVE HIM, even in the MOST DRY Atmosphere we will still stand up and want HIM. Even everybody seems doesn't WANT HIM, the one who WANT HIM will BREAK the ATMOSPHERE and will CHANGE the ATMOSPHERE. why? its because the brokenness of wanting HIM. Your body language will show it, your ACT will show it, your words will show it, even you wont be embarrassed to do anything just to HAVE HIM, because you have THE LONGING and THE DESIRE. THE WANTING of HIM will haunt you each breath you take.

This longing, This desire has change me. and i believe this same longing, and this same desire like DAVID has, will change you as well. wow i cant wait to see and to feel the change.

Okay, now you know what to do .. im gonna leave you for now.
I pray for you and i love you all.
Cheers,

Stimulating other to seek God

eoYoww .. wazz up?!! Please dont judge the notes by the HEADER *lol* So this time, im going to share what happen in my mind these days .. NOT YET having the answer .. but i need a company to THINK, THINK, THINK (like winnie the pooh said: if you have a problem THINK, THINK, THINK *lol - too much cartoon these days i guess)

As a mom, kata 'stimulasi' has become a POWERFUL word for me; its a very normal vocab in my daily lives well now it STRUCK me when it comes to the spiritual thing. As a mom, i was taught not too often DO and DONT's to my baby .. i was taught to STIMULATE his inteligence; merangsang inderanya untuk berkembang sendiri (okay, i promise i wont use bahasa roh dalam hal ini bahasa kedokteran khususnya bahasa ibu dan anak dan dokter anak) hahaha

Couple years ago, i was listening one man were saying "Bahwa kita hidup di generasi post-modern" (hold on guys till the end .. you'll get something i promise :)) Now let me tell you the characteristic of this post-modern people:
- Rasio adalah Tuhan mereka. Segala sesuatu dicurigai sampai ada bukti yang dapat diterima oleh akal manusia
- Anti berlembaga dan Anti mapan. Segala sesuatu akan menuju kepada perubahan, termasuk KEBENARAN.
- Tidak suka diGURUI apalagi diPERINTAH
- Kebenaran itu RELATIF tidak MUTLAK

Yeah, you know what guys: sedikit terlambat untuk membahas generasi post-modern, karena generasi yang akan datang adalah generasi platinum (WHAT??!! - wait for the next notes later later later) BUT never too late to learn. BUT better not late sih *halah*

POSTMODERN - Era matinya modernisme; yang telah memasuki seluruh masyarakat (mulai dari GAYA astitektur, jadi budaya: musik, fashion, cara berpikir, dan juga film, tidak terkecuali juga hal-hal rohani. Modernisme menggabungkan kebenaran dengan rasio, tapi Postmodernisme itu menolak kebenaran mutlak bahkan mencari sesuatu yang lebih tinggi dari rasio) .. oke im gonna stop now before you're all throw up. (if you want to know more, just googling those words)

So, these days i've been thinking about this words "STIMULATING"
- Gimana caranya "menstimulasi" orang2 untuk penasaran dan mencintai Tuhan yang saya sembah
- "menstimulasi" indera mereka, roh mereka untuk mencari Tuhan
- "menstimulasi" dan "merangsang" roh dan jiwa mereka untuk benar2 menginginkan Tuhan.

GUYS, this is our task .. to STIMULATE their spirit to SEEK GOD, not to JUDGE them, not to YELL to them from the stage, not to SUGGEST them, and not even enough just to be with them all day long. You need to STIMULATE them until they have a STRONG WILLING, that HUNGER and THIRST like you have, until they MEET God.

How many of us STRESS and get DEPRESS meeting this kind of people; Yang sangat KRITIS (menjatuhkan bukan membangun) dan bahkan perlu bukti sana sini untuk setiap kata di ALKITAB. wow .. what a people we meet. They're like expecting even insisting us to be "Ahli-Ahli Taurat"

While im writing this notes, wow suddenly i remembered one verse which i LIKE LIKE LIKE LIKE
Luk 24:32 Kata mereka seorang kepada yang lain: "Bukankah HATI KITA BERKOBAR-KOBAR, ketika Ia berbicara dengan kita di tengah jalan dan ketika Ia menerangkan Kitab Suci kepada kita?"

Luk 24:32 And they said one to another, Did not OUR HEART BURN WITHIN US, while he talked with us by the way, and while he opened to us the scriptures?

Hey, thats the answer .. HOW to stimulate people to SEEK God .. We must let JESUS SPEAK through us. Ayat diatas menceritakan bagaimana murid-murid Yesus berjumpa dengan seorang pria (padahal YESUS yg baru saja bangkit dan menemui mereka namun mereka tidak mengenalinya) dan HEYY .. what did they say? i'll HIGHLIGHT this one as the closing for this notes:

"BUKANKAH hati kita BERKOBAR-KOBAR"
"DID not OUR HEARTS BURN within us"

Waktu Yesus berbicara, perkataannya membuat HATI ORANG BERKOBAR-KOBAR .. wow. Jesus was STIMULATING them to SEEK HIM more, to FIND HIM more. Wow ..
Let this be your prayer tonite as you read this notes. this is the answer for your DRY cell group, for your DRY spirit, for your spiritual children's growth, for your church, and specially handling the POST-MODERN people .. YOU NEED TO LET JESUS Himself SPEAK through you .. then when you leave them .. they will say one another EXACTLY the same like those verse:

"Bukankah hati kita BERKOBAR-KOBAR ketika Dia bebicara dengan kita ..."
"Did not our hearts BURN within us when HE talked with us ..."

So, this is the last thought:
When was the last time your heart BURNED for GOD? Because you can only bring people as fas as you go. (Ketempat kemana kau pernah ada, kesitulah kau akan bawa orang2) You will never be able to bring people to a place where you havent been there before.

SOAK UP into Him tonite and GET DRAWN in HIM.
This is amazing .. You guys are amazing .. and i pray tonite for each one of you, for every cell group and for every family, and also NOT FORGET for the POST-MODERN generation where we live now and for the COMING PLATINUM generation :-) i pray for you all .. and i love you all.

xoxo

No more Excuses

I was preaching at THEBRIDGE a month ago about the HOT TOPIC. So I would write it down again imagining that it would be more blessing for more people and I do believe that if some of you who was there when I preached this topic, you would GET SOMETHING again when you re-read this. Enjoy, be change, and let’s make a difference.

NO MORE EXCUSES
I was sitting in front of my computer and typing “excuses” on Google. And guess what, I found an interesting site about “the mother of all excuses”. There’s a HUNDRED even THOUSAND excuses human made for one occasion and I decided to close the tab. Leaving me thinking about those WORD, I suddenly remembered my Senior Pastor Ps Nala Widya. Dari sepanjang pengenalan saya terhadap beliau, I think I can sum up some of the little thing from his life. In his life, ada 3 kosa kata yang gak pernah disebut: SUSAH, TIDAK BISA, TIDAK MUNGKIN. Same thing I GOT this from the freakin’ Ps Victor my spiritual father.

Beranjak dari pemikiran itu, ya well timbul satu kerinduan untuk semua anak-anak muda (including me) untuk punya GAYA HIDUP yang sama. Hey, they’re a MAN OF GOD. And look at their lives, come on. Now let’s look to the BIBLE.

1. ADAM & HAWA
Kejadian 2:9-10
Tetapi TUHAN Allah MEMANGGIL manusia itu dan berfirman kepadanya: “Dimanakah engkau?” Ia menjawab “Ketika aku mendengar, bahwa Engkau ada dalam taman ini, aku menjadi TAKUT, karena aku telanjang, sebab itu aku bersembunyi.”
2. MUSA
Keluaran 4:10-12
Lalu kata Musa kepada Tuhan: “Ah, Tuhan, aku ini TIDAK PANDAI BICARA, dahulupun tidak dan sejak Engkau berfirman kepada hamba-hamba-Mu pun tidak …”
Berapa banyak dari kita SERING mendengar alasan seperti yang ADAM dan HAWA katakan dan juga yang MUSA katakan. “Saya Takut” dan “Saya Gak Bisa” Wow, what a common excuses we heard nowadays, right.

And, I believe every human has THE RIGHT EXCUSES, punya segudang alasan bahkan WE often HAVE A GOOD & EXCELLENT excuses dan YA ternyata Alkitab pun menceritakan sebuah perumpaan tentang orang-orang yang berdalih di Lukas 14:16-21. Ternyata ada 3 alasan baik yang biasa orang-orang utarakan yang juga tercatat di Alkitab:

1. POSSESION (harta)
I still remembered the first time I jumped into the ministry; it was ketika saya sedang mengerjakan Tugas AKHIR (TA) saya. Btw, saya kuliah di jurusan DESAIN INTERIOR dan TA saya waktu itu adalah “Children Hospital” (The hardest project in Interior Design that moment). And HEY, I have an EXCELLENT excuse untuk gak melayani, untuk gak merintis sebuah pergerakan di sekolah Yahya waktu itu. I have a GOOD excuse, dan waktu saya CINTA banget dengan TA saya; TA saya waktu itu adalah harta saya. It was my possession for me to become a good interior designer, and I was enjoying every minute of doing my Last Project (Tugas Akhir)

2. VOCATION (Misi Pribadi)
Everyone of us has their own personal mission; they have their own vocation and its GOOD. Its Fine until it becomes YOUR EVERYTHING specially excuses for not seeking and serving God.
My Husband and I, we definitely have our vocation in life. But my husband is a man of God, he love God extraordinary and he dedicated his life his time to help the church in the MULTIMEDIA things. It all started with ONLY him, I remembered waktu itu masih pake OHP, sampai PROJECTOR bahkan sampai making the video; any kind of video: opening video for Sunday service, until today we have Announcement video host by our local VJ. And it took him 4 years to DO ALL THAT all by himself. Noticed that he’s a graphic design and he has a lot of project and that 4 years he dedicated; ALL HEART for God, for Church, and for the people. He’s a graphic designer who have a mission to be THE BEST GRAPHIC ENGINEER IN THE WORLD and he gave it all to God. Tuhan pakai dia waktu itu untuk jadi operator OHP.

3. FAMILY (keluarga)
Seems this one is THE BEST excuses in the world to not seeking and serving GOD. Im gladly to say, that you can look to our life and DO IMITATE us when you have a family. HAVING A BABY is an EXCELENT excuses to not serving God, because well maybe you can say that YOU WANT TO SERVE FAMILY atau juga GIVE THE BEST untuk family yang Tuhan sudah percayakan or else.

Ketiga hal diatas merupakan GOOD EXCUSES dan I believe GOD wont get depress if you’re not serving God anyway; He gave you FREEWILL and its your choice. But let me tell you what happen to us when we serve God instead making a THOSE GOOD EXCUSE: me, my husband, and also my baby boy

For me: I gave Him my possession, and HE gave more some more possession in life. Im imagining apa yang terjadi kalau waktu itu saya gak terjun ke sekolah Yahya, hari ini gak ada movement youth yang lebih besar lagi. Gak kebayang kalau waktu itu saya gak menginvestasikan hidup untuk 18 orang anak yahya; karena hari ini 18 anak Yahya menjadi para perintis kegerakan anak muda di sekolah-sekolah lain; dari yahya, mengalir ke Smuk1, Smuk2, Taruna bakti, SMP Rehoboth, SMA Kalam Kudus, SMP BPK4, dItenas, SMP7, SMAN16, SMAN22, komunitas sepeda, SMP Yahya, SMP Advent, SMP Gamaliel, gak lupa juga SMP SMA Paulus. If I made an excuses that day; there wont be another change for another youth to hear about the gospel and to encounter an amzing family in cell group. If I made an excuse that day; there wont be another leader rising up like today. They’re so YOUTH, STRONG, and PASSIONATE people. Isn’t HE AMAZING GOD?

For my husband (Brian): He gave his mission, he gave it all to God, He gave it all because of his desire to see GOD’s house are filled with YOUNG PEOPLE. And He did everything to make GOD’s house were attracted through Multimedia, through Video (and he learn everything all by himself), and also through magazine. And today, after 4 year he had one person who have a BIG heart for the church, and a FAN of Jesus, and also a multimedia person who finally rising up Multimedia CREW. And God gave him more than he was expected. God gave him more than his own mission, He gave another vocation. He used to be called as a graphic designer, now he was known as a GRAPHIC DESIGNER and also a graphic artist. Through his life experiences, he created a character that now SOLD OUT through out the internet. And last month, he was together with his friend in Singapore having their own TOYS EXHIBITION. Isn’t HE AMAZING GOD? Today, what he achieved is more than his own mission, its way bigger than we ever thought.

For my baby boy (Max): We gave his life to God, we think that we cannot take care him like GOD can take care of him. We believe that we can’t provide him everything like GOD can provide everything for him. I took him everywhere I go, even when I went to school to visit some of my spiritual children. He grows in car with us. Today, among every baby, he’s the only baby boy who enjoy the praise n worship in church (standing together with others right in front of the stage) and (I believe) he is the most TALKATIVE baby boy, and today, he is a toddler student in a HIGH CLASS and VERY EXPENSIVE school. Who pay for his school? Not his daddy or his mom. Someone called me one night karena orang tersebut kepikiran Max terus semingguan dan terbeban untuk sponsorin Max sekolah. Isn’t He JEHOVAH JIREH?

Church, ada banyak alasan untuk tidak melayani Tuhan bahkan ada banyak alasan baik dan sangat kuat, tapi maukah kita selalu temukan alasan untuk selalu melayani Tuhan dalam hidup kita? Dan ini adalah gaya hidup yang harus dibangun bersama. Untuk membuat perubahan dan yang pasti untuk kemuliaan nama Tuhan, demi generasi yang akan datang. By not making an excuse, we are worshiping God and making a legacy. Because it’s not just about your destiny, but it’s about your legacy.
Be blessed and let’s make a difference.

Spiritual yet Fun

Good morning everybody! I just came back from a morning prayer, it was AWESOME, you should be there .. yeah its a bit hard to wake up, BUT then you'll craving for it MORE and MORE. So come tomorrow to our prayer meeting; EXPECTING BIG, TOUCHING GOD, and CHANGES the ATMOSPHERE. So well, this morning im going to share about what i've been thinking this past few weeks along with my 11 years journey in the Christianity. So hows life by the way? HOPE ITS ALL GOOD according to GOD's plan.

LETS BEGIN!
Kita manusia terdiri dari: tubuh, jiwa, roh. Dont you know that our bible specifically mengurutkannya sebagai berikut: roh, jiwa, dan tubuh. Dont need to debate about what should be in the first priority, let me share what i've been through and what i commit my self to be, and what i want you the readers to be. So, siapapun kita specially you;re the NEW BORN CHRISTIAN, you should realize that you are a SPIRITUAL PERSON.

Since 1998, i've met all kind of spiritual peoples:
- VERY SPIRITUAL; everywhere he goes, speak, do, he always talk about spiritual thing.
- SO-SO Spiritual; not too excited about the spiritual thing, more excited about the performance thing.
- NOT SPIRITUAL; everywhere he goes, speak, do, he never talk about spiritual thing.

Well, i've been in all those level of spiritual christianity, and its oke if you've been there too. Its now im going to talk about. So dari tahun 1998, saya bertemu dengan banyak orang rohani, di awal-awal tahun kelahiran baru saya, saya dikelilingi oleh orang-orang yang: BERNUBUAT, mengadakan MUJIZAT, melayani PELEPASAN, dan PENGLIHATAN, et cetera. And i enjoyed every second of it and i LEARNED a lot. BUT YET someday, i saw most of them were backsliding (berbalik dari Tuhan); some of them were BITTER, un-SUBMIT, SINS, and Tenggelam di dalam dunia dimana seharusnya dia jadi terang.

Singkat kata, itu membuat saya menganalisa (oh this is so me *lol), berpikir, dan membuat sebuah rumusan dalam hati yang menciptakan sebuah TRAUMA akan orang-orang yang NGEROH. Kejadian yang terus berulang membuat saya makin TRAUMA dan ANTIPATI.

Lupa tahun kapan, but me and my spiritual children pernah ada di titik dan situasi KITA TIDAK SPIRITUAL. We are THE FUN PEOPLE who goes to Church, we tried to make the church is cool, the community is cool, but YET gak ada isinya "TONG KOSONG NYARING BUNYINYA" Sampai saya bertobat dan menganalisa (oh well, this is so me again *lol) dan memutuskan dalam hati untuk merubah haluan.

Some question that we should answer in our deep heart are:
- You may be a spiritual person, but are a FUN person to be with or to share with?
- You got something from GOD about "someone" and you know that you need to tell it straight, how do you tell them? and so far, what is their reaction hearing about your "revelation" or "vision" about them?
- You are a spiritual person, and how many un-spiritual friend do you have?
- Try imagine you are in somebody's shoes, do you like "you"?

A wise man told me one thing, bahwa:
"Kita harus jadi orang-orang yang EXPERT membangun hubungan dan memperbaiki hubungan" This is the KEY in our SPIRITUAL yet FUN life. We need to remember that NOT EVERYBODY understand about the spiritual thing yang kita dapatkan. Thats why we need to be EXPERT untuk menterjemahkan "KATA TUHAN" kepada orang dan kapan menyampaikannya.

This is what i change from my life:
I have to build relationship with as many people as i can, so that i can be GOD's messenger for their lives. (isn't is VERY SPIRITUAL? -YES it is) and how i tell them about GOD; masing-masing berbeda. How i build them one by one, masing-masing berbeda.

For the fashion people, i need to TALK about fashion. Thats why i need to learn at least know about fashion, and RELATE what GOD SAID to his life. It'll attract for her listening to GOD's word through me. Maybe i can say: Well, every fashion has a designer, and you know what every one of us also has a DESIGNER. etc. IT IS FAR MORE BETTER THAN saying: Repent!! Because GOD is so angry to you, and you know what.. HE IS YOUR DESIGNER, and you are HIS DESIGN.

For the youth people, i have to be like the youth. I need to be with them for a while before i can lead them, guide them, and bring them into GOD's KINGDOM. I have to speak like ayouth, think like a youth, so they will hear me.

For the OLDER people, i have to respect them. Learning not to say: "Saya dapatkan dari Tuhan bahwa bla bla bla .. dan dipastikan mereka akan BEREAKSI and you will not gonna like it.

So, we have to THINK how to be a FUN PERSON to be with, to share lives with, before you can be a SPIRITUAL PERSON to somebody. Its not just about BALANCE, its about "bagaimana hati Tuhan supaya sampai ke orang-orang yang kita layani"

Paulus is a FUN PERSON to be with and a SPIRITUAL PERSON and HE WON lots of people as long as HE lives;
1Co 9:19 Sungguhpun aku bebas terhadap semua orang, aku menjadikan diriku hamba dari semua orang, supaya aku boleh memenangkan sebanyak mungkin orang.
1Co 9:20 Demikianlah bagi orang Yahudi aku menjadi seperti orang Yahudi, supaya aku memenangkan orang-orang Yahudi. Bagi orang-orang yang hidup di bawah hukum Taurat aku menjadi seperti orang yang hidup di bawah hukum Taurat, sekalipun aku sendiri tidak hidup di bawah hukum Taurat, supaya aku dapat memenangkan mereka yang hidup di bawah hukum Taurat.
1Co 9:21 Bagi orang-orang yang tidak hidup di bawah hukum Taurat aku menjadi seperti orang yang tidak hidup di bawah hukum Taurat, sekalipun aku tidak hidup di luar hukum Allah, karena aku hidup di bawah hukum Kristus, supaya aku dapat memenangkan mereka yang tidak hidup di bawah hukum Taurat.
1Co 9:22 Bagi orang-orang yang lemah aku menjadi seperti orang yang lemah, supaya aku dapat menyelamatkan mereka yang lemah. Bagi semua orang aku telah menjadi segala-galanya, supaya aku sedapat mungkin memenangkan beberapa orang dari antara mereka.

AND, i believe JESUS is a FUN PERSON to be with and to share lives with and HE is a VERY SPIRITUAL PERSON (Come on, He is GOD); See how the children mingle around HIM, see bagaimana orang berdosa gak takut untuk berbicara dengan DIA, see bagaimana orang-orang sakit menginginkan DIA, see bagaimana dari para nelayan, perempuan-perempuan, orang sakit, anak kecil bahkan pemungut cukai ber SAHABAT dengan DIA. Selain DIA adalah Tuhan, sangat spiritual, i believe HE IS A FUN PERSON TO BE WITH.

So today, lets check .. apakah orang-orang betah berada di sekitar kita? Rasanya orang berdosa pun menjadi segan kalau melihat kita, because they think we are TOO HOLY, dan apakah orang-orang bersahabat dengan kita yang SPIRITUAL? IF NOT, itu berarti kita harus rubah haluan.

So be VERY SPIRITUAL but YET a FUN person to be with.
Goals: Supaya pesan Tuhan bisa masuk ke setiap orang yang kita jumpai.
Things to consider and to do:
- Be an EXPERT di dalam membangun hubungan dan memperbaiki hubungan dengan level manapun
- Like a WATER; kita masuk ke dalam kehidupan mereka, dan sampai mereka masuk juga ke dalam kehidupan kita, then the WORD OF GOD can easily flows.
- BE CREATIVE to say ANYTHING about SPIRITUAL LIFE. Remember our GOALs: Kita buat segala cara supaya pesan Tuhan masuk, didengar, dan diterima mereka. Tanggung jawabnya ada pada kita.
- Learn the ART OF knowing THE RIGHT TIME to say the SPIRITUAL THING. Well, in this world like this everytime is like a wrong time .. but we need to UNDERSTAND though.
- This is the most important thing: DO IT WITH LOVE.
- STOP judging, REMEMBER names, APPRECIATE MORE than to CRITIZE, Stop talking and just BE an EXAMPLE, BOLD AGAINTS SIN, yet lemah lembut menghadapi orang, LISTEN MORE. If you wanna talk to them you need to HEAR THEM MORE LONGER THAN YOU NEED TO TALK.
- Last but not least: BE FUN, and HAVE FUN in your christianity journey OTHERWISE, you wont be a FUN person to be with.

ps: remember that we are a SPIRITUAL person and have to be SPIRITUAL and discuss SPIRITUAL thing and come up with the SPIRITUAL IDEAS and SOLUTIONS, but you need to BE a FUN PERSON to share about those SPIRITUAL THING specially with the NOT TOO SPIRITUAL PEOPLE or maybe with the NON-SPIRITUAL PERSON. if we ourselves are not a FUN person and really having FUN in our spiritual lives, how come they will believe what we said? *think of it*

So i guess, im gonna leave you to think for a while, if need .. rubah haluan dan change your style.
HAVE FUN TODAY y'all

Example for the Believers

Helo again peeps! Counting down to the year 2010 i believe this notes will inspire you and to shape you to become a better person RIGHT BEFORE THE 2010 is BEGIN. Yeah well, not this notes actually, but again the WORD that become FLESH that will change you, transform you, and make you. So here it is .. enjoy every word, slowly chew the word, and be transform!

I do believe that "People SILENTLY JUDGE us" if you're agree with me just NOD your head (angguk angguk.red) Ada sebuah ayat yang udah gak asing di telinga kita kayanya, it sounds like this:

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Jangan seorangpun menganggap engkau rendah karena engkau muda. Jadilah teladan bagi orang-orang percaya, dalam perkataanmu, dalam tingkah lakumu, dalam kasihmu, dalam kesetiaanmu dan dalam kesucianmu. 1 Timotius 4:12
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Let no man despise thy youth; but be thou an example of the believers, in word, in conversation, in charity, in spirit, in faith, in purity. 1 Timothy 4:12
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Let me ask you .. kapan terakhir kali ada seseorang merendahkan kamu, right in front of your face and he said "You are such a LOW person. JERK!" Saya percaya jarang banget itu terjadi, mungkin beberapa dari kita gak pernah juga mengalami pengalaman kaya gitu. ngeri bener kalo emang itu terjadi. BUT BUT BUT percaya gak, bahwa PEOPLE SILENTLY JUDGE US. Instead of yeah well kita gak bole nge judge orang dan bla bla bla, tapi orang secara SILENT, in their own heart, in their own mind .. mereka menilai siapa kita dimata mereka lewat PERKATAAN, TINGKAH LAKU, KASIH, KESETIAAN, dan KESUCIAN.

Thats why, PAULUS concern banget sama TIMOTIUS yang adalah anak rohaninya. He BOLDY say to Tim "Jangan SEORANGPUN (seorangpun) menganggap engkau RENDAH karena engkau muda. Wow, baru kali ini kayanya saya lebih suka terjemahan indonesianya, lebih BOLD, TAJAM, gue banget gitu. *lol*

Next, he said JADILAH TELADAN. Be an example of the believers. Ini simple banget untuk ditulis memang dan agak sulit waktu praktek, but we have to do it anyway. Then Paul give some of the points where we 'youth' sering dianggap rendah dan sekaligus points yang sama mengenai di area mana kita jadi teladan.

1. PERKATAAN
I have to admit, that many times my words are FASTER than my brain. This is one of my leak guys. Those who know me will SMILE and NOD now *grin face* lol. Seringkali anak muda dianggap rendah lewat perkataan kita; Becanda-becandaan kita lah, ato latah-latah kita lah, ato umpatan-umpatan kita. Selain itu, lewat curhatan kita pun orang bisa nilai kita itu orang macam apa, rendah kah, " berpendidikankah, atau so so lah. Thats why we have to control perkataan kita, jangan kaya "kecipirit". mind my words but thats the best example how to explain it anyway. *peace finger*

Kitab Yakobus membahas cukup banyak soal "lidah" betapa lidah itu bagian tubuh yang kecil tapi seperti api yang walaupun kecil bisa membakar sebuah hutan besar. Dengan lidah kita memuji Tuhan, dengan lidah yang sama kita mengutuki orang. Mungkin gak sampai mengutuki, tapi perkataan keputusasaan, perkataan pesimis, perkataan kasar. Mungkin gak kasar juga, JUST KIDDING (kayanya sering deh kita denger kata itu), tapi kepikir gak bahwa lewat JUST KIDDING kita, beberapa orang di sekitar kita MIGHT GET HURT dan welcome to the judgment day. People silently judge you by your word. Thats why jadilah teladan dalam perkataan. Its oke becanda, Its oke say everything, but knowing the right time and the right place is really important. Let me apologize to each one of you if there was any my KIDDING word somehow hurting you personally. i repent today, and promise to do better in the future. i better watch my mouth next time. Silent is gold sometimes is right, but not always right. :)

2. TINGKAH LAKU
Pada dasarnya, tingkah laku seseorang itu adalah respon dari apa yang terjadi di sekitar kita. Dan tingkah laku itu terbentuk dan terus berkembang tergantung di komunitas mana dia berada. People silently judge our ACT. Kalau dalam perkataan, mungkin hanya orang yang kita kenal yang bisa SILENTLY JUDGE us, tapi kalo bicara soal tingkah laku ... EVERY BODY CAN JUDGE US. And we cant stop them from judging us, we cant say IN JESUS NAME GO WAY. They're will always be there. Thats why if you're a leader, you better watch your act. Dari hal yang sederhana sampai hal yang besar, dari hal yang gak penting sampai hal yang penting, kita perlu PUSH ourselves untuk jadi teladan bagi orang percaya. Pernah gak kita di restaurant tertentu dan kita liat ada orang yang makan kaya gak pernah dikasi makan setaun, kaya kelaparan banget. Mungkin kita ga bahas, but we silently judge them rite. Thats the same thing with all the people in the world. Well, we better watch our act everyone.

3. KASIH
Love is the basic and foundation of every aspect in our lives and i believe all of you are agree with me. Everybody in this world needs LOVE. They even singing about love, and if you checked the movies, the sinetron and everything in the production house .. if you wanna get a BIG costumer, sell LOVE. Tell them about love, they will like it. because they need love. Love is giving *always* So in this area, we need to be an example HOW TO LOVE not just by words but by GIVING. Because love is always giving. Banyak orang di dunia ini hanya MENGAMBIL, MENERIMA, just TAKING. why? Because they simply dont have anything to be given. THE NEED is love. We need to be an example how to give our time, how to give our full attention when people share something to us, how to give our full care, how to give our full life when serving each other. GIVE, GIVE, GIVE. This is our identity; to GIVE. And people silently judge us when we give a little. Mind my words again: Banyak orang gak tau bagaimana memberi yang terbaik untuk orang yang sudah memberi yang terbaik.

4. KESETIAAN
Kitab Mikha berkata seperti ini: Banyak orang benar (baik), tapi orang yang setia siapakah yang menemukannya? Banyak sekali gambaran ketidaksetiaan di televisi apalagi infotaintment *yeah well what do you expect la* the world spreading the DISLOYAL viruses we need to SPRAY and KILL the virus by becoming an example dalam kesetiaan kita. Kesetiaan gak hanya berbicara mengenai pernikahan dan pacaran, tapi juga dalam keseharian kita. You know all the examples about this im sure. Once you read this "word' i believe its like "ya ya ya i know" Okay then, mari jadi teladan dalam hal kesetiaan. Setia berdoa, setia melayani, tepat janji (termasuk BE ON TIME!) *AHA* you're not expecting me saying this ON TIME thing rite? but too bad it is. *lol* Remember, people silently judge us.

5. KESUCIAN
Wow, this is the last one. i love the word "PURE". Dunia memperkenalkan nilai-nilai korupsi, penyelewengan, dan politik-politik juga strategi-strategi. Pemain bola pasti tau soal strategi. But let me say this: strategi itu hanya untuk perang, hanya untuk bola, hanya untuk berjualan, hanya untuk menang dan BUKAN untuk hubungan. kemurnian, kesucian dalam hubungan "TANPA MOTIVASI menguntungkan diri sendiri" rasanya udah jarang kita temui hari-hari ini. i wanna be pure, i wanna be around people who really connect with me bukan karena saya menguntungkan mereka, (kalo udah menguntungkan berarti dicuekin dong) tapi karena they want to connect with me, even saya gagal, even saya pernah salah, et cetera. People, the world actually longs for the PURE person. GIRLS, you know all the examples. Mind my examples again: how many times awalnya koko dede (AHA!!) dan akhirnya si koko ternyata suka dan si DEDE kecewa karena mengetahui ternyata selama ini si KOKO ada hati. Gak ada seorang pun yang beli AQUA, tapi di botolnya ada tulisan 99% murni, 1% racun and you still buy it, i tell you, you're not just LOW, you're CRAZY. Again, people silently judge you. Come on lets be an example in the purity. Bukan karena kita ada maunya, atau bahkan supaya menguntungkan kita pribadi. Be pure!

Those are five daily things that we DEAL almost everyday and every minute i guess. We deal with our own mouth, mind, and heart. Be an example bukan berarti kita memalsukan kata-kata kita, memalsukan tingkah laku kita setiap saat (JAIM) *cape deh*, memalsukan kasih kita, kesetiaan kita, dan kesucian kita. Ini bukan soal menjadi orang lain .. but those 5 points buat saya sederhana menantang saya untuk jadi orang yang lebih baik. Right before christmas, Right before 2010 .. i wanna be a better person. And i wanna be an EXAMPLE for the generation to come. I SET my life, my day, my everything to be a MODEL for this generation. Yes, kata TELADAN or EXAMPLE itu berarti: MODEL atau FIGURE. If it means that i have to pay the cost, let it be. Because "CHILDREN SEE, CHILDREN DO" and Your word would not as powerful as your example.

be an EXAMPLE for me is like the MOST effective way to teach someone, to bring someone to Jesus, to equip someone. I hope i would say less, and act more and i hope people could IMITATE me .. we cant say "Contoh yang baik dari saya, yang gak baik jangan dicontoh" NO WE CANNOT. Because again, CHILDREN SEE CHILDREN DO. People around us need a MODEL, need a FIGURE, and they IMITATE the model, they IMITATE the FIGURE good or bad. They will imitate our words, our act, our love, our loyalty, our purity.

You are not created to be LOW. You are HIGH VALUED, such a MASTERPIECE made by GOD Himself. Thats why, be an EXAMPLE of the BELIEVERS.

First Romance

Hello world!
Its a dark cloudy day just now while im sitting with my hubby @begana resto. We just talked (husband n wife talk u dont want to hear definetely *lol), we basically talked about "us" how blessed we are, how amazing God, and how super cute our son. (dont get bored first please lol) we always talk and talk about everything yes EVERYTHING. We named this "quality time" (hubby just asked if im writing and i said yes) how romantic.

Suddenly i remembered i was saying this to a new couple "Dijaga keromantisannya sampe oma opa yah" (lol). Oo i dont know about you, call me naif, childish, or girly haha but i always wanted to feel this way. Im proudly pronounce that im 30, sexy, happy and loved! And i feel like i can move a mountain, i feel like i can do everything, i feel like nothings too hard in this world, nothings bad in this world. Inside of me is like BURSTING like crazy. Can you feel it? Can you feel it?

Now suddenly i got a glimpse of a bible verse in my head (nah, you'll know i'll get into the WORD sometimes right?) ..

Namun demikian Aku mencela engkau,
karena engkau telah meninggalkan kasihmu yang semula. Why2:4

Nevertheless I have this against you, that you have left your first love. Rev2:4

Back to the first love is very important. Meninggalkan kasih yang semula biasanya gak kerasa, tapi to get back to the first love is a MUST. In our marriage, we got bored sometimes, tired of working and building, we slipped into a flat life of our marriage. But all we got to do is bursting every effort to make it full of excitement justike the first time we found out we had fall in love each other. And it took EVERY EFFORT to finally comes back to our first love. (kabur dari kantor hanya demi nonton berdua, ninggalin max di omanya demi kita jalan2 berdua, batalin janji dgn anak rohani karena we desperately need each other, need to hold hand upsss*) Everything we do, just to get back to our first romance, gimana Deg2an nya, heart pumping nya, gregetnya, auww its backk! YES IT SHOULD BE BACK!

You know, now its GOD. And HE deserved every effort for us to finally get back to the first love. So hows your first love with God? Have u ever meet again with those feeling; when you feel you can do evrything just to haveHim, when u you said that you'll do everything for Him, and you will serve Him no matter what. Remember about the first tears on your face when you met Him face to face and how it change your whole life, how it heals your heart. And how about when you really missed His presence and you catch Him where ever you go. Go back there now! Go back there soon! Its your source, infact He is your source. Go back there for your own sake. First love bukan dipertahankan, first love dibangun setiap hari. Sesuatu yang dibangun setiap hari, pasti bertahan. Go back there!

Let me continue the verse:
Sebab itu ingatlah betapa dalamnya engkau telah jatuh! Bertobatlah dan lakukanlah lagi apa yang semula engkau lakukan. Jika tidak demikian, Aku akan datang kepadamu dan Aku akan mengambil kaki dianmu dari tempatnya, jikalau engkau tidak bertobat. Why2:5

Remember therefore from where you have fallen, and repent and do the first works; but if not, I am coming to you quickly and I will remove your lampstand out of its place, unless you repent. Rev2:5

To not having 'the first love' is SIN; in fact its the beginning of SIN and other SINS. Its the beginning dari adanya perselingkuhan dan perzinahan di keluarga, di pernikahan, dan di hubungan pertunangan. REMEMBER HOW FAR YOU HAVE FALL. And we should REPENT.

GO BACK THERE SOON! how?
"Lakukanlah lagi apa yang semula engkau lakukan"

God said jealousy (Yes, He is jealous of you) "Aku akan mengambil kaki dianmu dari tempatnya, jikalau engkau tidak bertobat" Wow, its so serious. This notes suddenly so serious just like those Words. Apa sih kaki dian? Kaki dian itu seperti lampu yang bikin kita jadi keliatan ketika kita ada di dalam gelap; it means kaki dian itu membuat kita dilihat orang, dihargai orang. Kaki dian itu gambaran kesuksesan kita (you name it). And again God said jealousy "Aku akan mengambil kaki dianmu dari tempatnya ..." (it might be your job, your hobby, your boy/girl friend, etc) Who is your God now? Your boyfriend? Your girlfriend? He will take him/her from you seriously. So please, go back there!

So, last thing (it should be the first thing i asked rite, but let me just ask you now:) HOW ARE YOU? HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY? Hows your love life with GOD? Where is your first love? GO BACK THERE, SERIOUSLY!

The GOD i KNOW

Its now 1.20am and im thinking about God; Father, Jesus, and Holy Spirit .. The God who really catch my heart few years back, and im trying to remember all of the details about what i'd been experienced since.

HE IS MY HEALER
Most of my life, He heals my broken heart. Its the important thing in my life i guess, to be healed inside. Sampai hari ini, sy masih terus temukan bahwa Tuhan "menyembuhkan" saya, and i got a quote in my life "saya harus sembuh" dan quote itu terus mendorong saya untuk mencari Tuhan sampai mengalami kesembuhan itu sendiri. He heals my broken heart since 1998; sakit hati dari keluarga yang 'broken', berkali-kali melihat papa siksa mama sampai darah dan muka lebam mama jadi pemandangan tiap hari, sakit hati karena dituduh mencuri perhiasan dan uang dollar di rumah engkong dan dipaksa ngaku juga omg omg, sakit hati karena di khianati pacar, sakit hati melihat adik saya yang kedua hidupnya berantakan, sakit hati liat mama saya terjerat hutang, sakit hati liat papa suru mama gantung diri dengan tali tambang yang udah disiapin, sakit hati karena saya kena pukul terus tiap kali bela mama, My whole teen life was about HURTING inside and outside, dll. Everytime i draw near to God with my whole "heart", i ended up being HEAL. I thank God for those moment who finally leads me to the healer. He is my healer and yours too. This quote is for you: "Kamu harus sembuh"

HE IS MY DEFENDER
Semua keluarga besar pandang keluarga saya 'rendah' and i've been QUITE and also SILENT karena saya masih kecil. I just can keep it in my heart. Sejak saya lahir baru, seems like Tuhan ingin memperkenalkan diriNya sebagai PEMBELA HIDUP SAYA. Dan YUP! Sejak saat itu sampai saat ini, Dia membela perkara saya 'ALWAYS'. My family was broke, dan saya kuliah karena dana yang turun dari om yang super kaya. (for me at least). Dia bela saya, sampai saat ini saya gak tau siapa sponsor saya untuk saya sekolah di Singapore. Keluarga besar gak pernah sangka dan mimpi kalau ada anak dari keluarga FRANS THE (almarhum papa) akan pernah mengecap sekolah di luar negri dan GRATIS. Dia membela saya dan keluarga saya. He bring me to Malaysia, and also to Australia. I traveled a lot for a girl my age, a girl yang gak dipandang orang dan dari keluarga yang juga gak dipandang. One time, papa saya sampai berlutut di kaki om untuk supaya saya bisa sekolah, dan saya mengulangnya pada orang yang sama untuk supaya adik saya bisa sekolah. Hari ini, keluarga saya keluarga yang terpandang karena Tuhan membela perkara saya.

HE IS MY LOVER
I need to be loved on a very HIGH level sejak SMA. Mempergunakan dan hampir menghalalkan segala cara sampai cowo-cowo 'suka berat' sama saya. Pretty success that time! Dan sejak saya lahir baru, everytime i come to God, He shows His affection that i needed most of the time in my life. He is my lover; He used everything around me to say that "He loves me" and my heart can feel that. Di pinggir jalan nunggu angkot tiba-tiba angkot berenti (penuh banget), tapi di radionya ada lagu cinta dan all of sudden, kaya ke GEER-an seolah itu disengaja untuk saya. *blushing* .. i was thinking about new pants, new shoes dan tiba-tiba di kamar ada celana dan sepatu yang PERCIS seperti yang saya mau. Satu kali i was walking to home pulang dari kampus, karena gak ada uang sama sekali, the soft voice in my heart said "LOOK UP, LOOK LOOK!" dan (maybe its just me), tapi saya liat awan diatas saya berbentuk hati. (tell me naif or childish, but HEY i FELT LOVE) *blushing again* EVERYDAY IS A SURPRISE from my LOVER i can say. I feel loved, E V E R Y D A Y and i never felt like this before. His love is very real i can feel. Its beyond every explanation i just can feel it. Ever since, saya gak perlu lagi cari perhatian dari para cowo-cowo supaya mereka jatuh cinta sama saya, saya gak perlu lagi manja-manjaan sama cowo-cowo yang gak jelas, because i got what i need. Sampai saya ketemu dengan pasangan hidup saya, Brian Harsanto .. He was like jelmaan asmaranya Tuhan buat saya. The way he treat me, love me, surprise me, look at me, its just so real.

HE IS MY 100% DADDY
Karena saya kurang ngerti kasih papa, itu justru membuat saya bergantung pada Tuhan. Waktu papa meninggal, beberapa hari setelah itu .. saya baru sadar bahwa selama ini saya belum mengenal Tuhan sebagai BAPA. Dan sejak itu, saya mengatakan bahwa Tuhan adalah my 100% daddy for me. He protects and He provides like a real dad. Im a warrior, but setiap kali saya datang sama Tuhan, He shows up as a DAD. Every time im super tired, and super hurt, HE showed up as a DAD. He provides my everything as a DAD. a DAD that i cannot touch physically, but a DAD who always i touched right in His heart. He touched my heart, as a DAD. One nite God asked me "Essly, from now on allow me to be your 100% Dad" and i was just C R Y I N G and C R Y I N G because a girl like, definitely needs a DAD. *im missing my earth dad who is not earthly with me now* *sob*

HE IS MY KING
day by day, week by week, month by month, year by year ... i learned and i experienced many things. When i grow up a little bit more, HE SHOWED UP as a KING. dan sejak saat itu, saya menganggap Dia RAJA dengan hati BAPA. He wants my daily lives and i gave it to Him. Setiap keputusan yang mau saya ambil, i'd make sure that He allows me to do so, i'd make sure that He nod His head before i do everything else. He is the KING of KINGS, and i serve Him as His daughter, as His first daughter and together preparing the way untuk si bungsu pulang. "He is the Lord of my days"

last but not least ...
HE IS MY EVERYTHING
Yes its true, He's been my everything and will always be my everything. Its another point which hard to explained, but He is my reason for everything. He is my reason until today, why i sing, why i preach, why i cry, why i smiled, why im happy and why i am today be what i am today. Segalanya buat saya, segalanya buat keluarga saya. And day by day, He keeps showing me LOVE.. He is the reason! My everything.

He is the GOD i know ..
Ada satu quote yang keren banget:
"The more you know God, The more you love Him, the more you'll worship Him"
Because worshiping is about GOD, its about the GOD you know.

He is the GOD i know ..

Hope you can get "The GOD you KNOW" in your journey of worshiping Him. Experience HIM!
He'll love to hear that pray, and He'll run to meet you.

Pe 3:18 Tetapi bertumbuhlah dalam kasih karunia dan dalam pengenalan akan Tuhan dan Juruselamat kita, Yesus Kristus. Bagi-Nya kemuliaan, sekarang dan sampai selama-lamanya.

xoxo xoxo